a picture in words

in previous life, i chose to be known as a visual artist/cartoonist.
recently someone suggested i draw a picture of myself rather than post a photo.
the words were something like....why not draw a picture of that one within wishing to speak ?
am now inspired to do so....working on it...thanks to that person.
first attempt.....
small, curious, wary, confused, doubting every thought/feeling,
unwashed due to prevailing conditions, saturday night came but once a week.
smart, clever, creative, hiding the light to not anger dark forces about.
must be very careful in how to voice things....terrible consequences if not perfect and appropriate.
no right answer, only yes sir or no sir, maybe is never a possibility !
only ever alone, who exactly am i speaking to ?
i think it's to the other only ever alone ones.
who am i speaking to ?
those who wish to know truth....not the popular preferred version.
who is there listening ?
who is there to tell ?
who is there to care ?
who is willing to acknowledge they know what is so ?....and sometimes are afraid to reveal this truth.
who will speak in return ?
who will risk to acknowledge this innocent intimate gesture ?
is there anyone out there ?
there is definitely someone within here !
here's a picture....in words.