speak...and someone will listen

am involved with anonymous 12 step group....designed to address issues underlying substance use and/or abuse.
one strong suggestion within this circle is this....it is not my business to take care of another's emotions.
another tenet....it is not my concern what you think of me.
not exactly how i was conditioned to think in the "society" i grew up in and around.
in fact, quite the polar opposite.
why does it seem so important for me to choose this medium of expression?
because it is potentially a public forum....no hits yet....but that's okay.
one chronic source of personal frustration has been this....the old "elephant in the room" syndrome.
this has been a central theme in life so far....experiencing the excruciating agony of being in a group of people who seemed to share an "unspoken" common rule of  understanding/behaviour/communication style.
my belief was that i was supposed to already "know" this unspoken rule....i was not able to ask what this unspoken rule was, as this would centre me out as a non-understanding so-called member and therefore must be excommunicated (culled from the herd) a.s.a.p.
almost always life presented as myself not 1) having 2) knowing 3) believing 4) feeling 5) understanding
that which all others seemed to take for granted....on all levels, material, financial, status, comprehension.
i was certain, based on what seemed real evidence, that i was unlike other people...being often amazed to observe that i appeared to possess all of the physical attributes of a human, i looked and sounded human in the mirror, seemed to present as human superficially to others, but ultimately being convinced i was in fact the only member of a lesser sub-species that wasn't quite human and ought never dare to presume human status.
jeez, if this is so, it's certainly time to dust that old belief off and let it out of the closet to the light of truth.
experience lately suggests that i will intuitively know how to manage situations that used to baffle me.
if only i exercise faith...and continue to risk letting all those old core beliefs see the daylight....the next right statement or action will become obvious.
if any of you can identify and have not yet found the words or the methodology to express your inner world, well, doesn't that seem a useful purpose for these journal entries ?
if not, okay, skip to the next page or blog.
my higher power hints that if i speak it, an audience will definitely eventually witness these words.