coming 64 in a few months....how have i celebrated this borrowed time....just for today ?
mmmm....the grapes i "pilfered" today from a neighbour's vine are almost ripe....a little tart but quite edible.
2 or 3 days more and perfection !
if i could only climb his apple tree, there's this amazingly perfect apple just out of reach, as well as just a bit too far over the fence....darn.
takes me back to life as a boy just on the edge of southern ontario's fruit-belt.
almost every yard had some sort of fruit tree or two....or three....yum !
attended 2 AA meetings....am so grateful for vast improvement in mental and emotional health....am now eager to give back that which was given freely....unconditional love, acceptance and support from virtual strangers.
they had proclaimed they would love me til i learned to love myself again....and they proved to be good for their word.
it's comforting to feel ABLE to be present and available for others in similar lost states of body, mind, heart and soul....as i was, not so long ago.
sounds so hokey....that's okay....i am alive today, not just existing in that endless not-so quiet despair, but with the sparkle in my eyes returning....as people are noticing and commenting upon lately....which is so rewarding to hear.
the human race i had resigned from, all you folks, you're not as scary as i had made you out to be.....thank the powers that be ! !
i almost checked out permanently, without giving you all that one more chance....more to the point....to give myself one more chance to let you close enough to find out what you're really like.
and trust that perhaps a few of you might care to learn what i am really like.
thanks to you, thanks to me, and thanks to those powers that be !
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