Wednesday, October 19, 2011

open mind - open heart

an open heart
how shall this come about ?

first i must have an open mind
how shall that come about ?

i cannot relieve myself
of the problem of
close-mindedness
if i could have done so
i would have done by now

what does an open mind
look like through these eyes ?
a clear and unencumbered
state of awareness...
peace of mind

personal experience has shown
that once i had been triggered
into some distraction
regarding people, places, things
my mind snapped shut
while those grinding gears
were set again in motion
no more open mind
therefore, no hope
of an open heart

it was the process of resenting
someone or another
that was the distraction itself

regardless of the details
the individual or group involved
my mind was in an altered state
that which was not free or open

resentment is the killer
it is always waiting
waiting just to take me
for another hellish ride

i must choose to pray
to be relieved
of this obsession
no longer can i run
or fight or hide

and who or what
shall be the one
to offer this relief ?

a higher power
of my understanding

the very 'higher power'
that i prayed to
while at the very
bottom of the pit

PLEASE HELP ME, GOD !

yes, that 'higher power'
who subtly whispered in my ear

STOP DIGGING !

that 'higher power'

yes, that one !

i had to pray
to be relieved
of the stubborn will
to keep on fighting

then freely choose to
offer up that will  
to the care and protection
of my 'higher power'
and because of this
and this alone
i am living still

there is a prayer
that i know of
heaven sent
i have no doubt

this is a sick one
that i deal with
i am sick as well
how may i be
of service?
please save me
from anger
and resentment
thy will be done
not mine

it's the only
thing that works
and it works every time

this simple prayer

sometimes it is
the only thing
that saves me from
a journey into hell

this simple prayer

when sincerely uttered
can bring those
grinding wheels
to a halt

only then can this mind
be open and at peace
bringing renewed hope
for a free and open heart













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